kill your self
sans connaissance de cause
.
i could pretend that
when you kill yourself, you lose all your credibility,
unlike what the suicide candidate wants to believe
before killing him- or herself.
.
you only kill yourself willingly when you believe a lie
either a lie of the grass greener being in the afterworld
or another lie
a lie in your life that defines you or what you do
that is crucial in your life
that is part of your believe structure
and that betrays you at some point.
and when the lie explodes
all that is left is shame
shame to have believed that lie
to have lived it, to have sold it, to have forced it up the nose of others
to have caused deaths for the lie.
.
sometimes you kill yourself before the lie explodes
out of instinct
.
who knows what could happen to you
with loss of integrity for having believed and promoted the lie
with such loss of social control
fear overtakes
fear of revenge
.
surely you are seen negatively by others
and so a further lie is to believe that society is unfair to you
especially you
and that you will never be able to be happy
because the power trading is screwed against you
.
why people indulge in this lie
can't liberate themselves from the friends and family, neighbours and colleagues
who oppress them
i can't say
i guess its education,
social education, emotional education, rational education, spiritual education
.
maybe there is no hope no more when you kill yourself
no more hope for yourself
for others maybe
yet do you really want to kill yourself for others ?
are we in a war ?
have we been attacked ?
life's a fight
we're several billions
don't you think it was going to be easy
not for honor, not for glory you kill yourself
.
we really don't need you killing yourself
to tell us that society or life or the universe is unfair
or to make up for an error of yours, as laudable that might seem,
no, no persuasion is too strong for you
you know better
somewhere
maybe not right now
but your instinct to survive tells you that the persuasion is only a lie
and we don't want you to get away with your lie
the solution seems to be suicide
we know
but we don't accept it
because it can't be.
.
don't be a martyr - learn to fight
and stop playing - life's not a game
don't lose your credibility - even if it there is only a last bit you have
for as long as you survive you won't lose it
as you prove by surviving that you do at least something right.
.
remember your origins
and find strength in your destiny
which isn't suicide
a lie
.
hope dies last
as impossible to believe for a depressed person.
the rationality prevails
that is that the impossible exists
and so you never know.
humans are dumb when it comes to the workings of universe and life
doubt should always prevail when it comes to talk about the future
nothing is decided
until you die
what's the hurry ?
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3o-june-2o2o
